Part of me just wants to stay home all day and cry the pain out. I know I’ll be okay, but it hurts a lot. I’m so glad I’m off tomorrow. Thank goodness. I need to be alone.
"Becoming cold hearted is what makes you "Icy" with women. It’s actually part of the game to go through trauma and some of the worst pain you’ve ever felt. After that, approaching and shit is NOTHING after that.
You’ve gotta actually be traumatized to the point where you even become physically ill at times in order to develop that iciness. You hear Owen say “Ice, be icy” or whatever,
but you can’t “do icy” you have to BE “icy”.
There is no “having been through this” you’ll go through it for the rest of your life until you feel NOTHING. You will no longer care.
And you know what? It’s much better to not care. Love, companionship and friendship cannot compare to the freedom that comes with not caring. Trust me. The less I care, the happier I am.”